"hello, I´m in Delaware" and "home"
So strange how my life seems to change it´s path, in so sort time.
Right now I´m listeing to "transatlanticism" by death cab for cutie, the last song I´ve heard from you.
The songs in the headline are those that suit my feelings right now.
I feel lost. Even more than before.
Cause now the possibility to loste you, and you vanishing out of my life completely is quite near.
You said you needed time, I said i will give you as much as you need, you asked if i would wait, I said yes, of course.
So now I´ll wait. Unable to do anything. Numb, thats the way I felt yesterday at the phone and how I feel right now.
I can pretend to see everything quite mature but I´m hurt.
But I will wait and continue loving and hoping.
"so strange how everything went wrong so fast"- Dallas green.
I still can´t get what happend. I´m waking up and the first thought is that this didn´t happen. It´s just impossible.
Our love, everything changed so fast, and now I´m sitting in my room, drowning in thoughts and the memory of you, the picture haunt me cause every familiar place is patched with memorys of you.
It doesn´t quite feel like "goodbye" but I don´t know why I´m so fucking sad.
I hate waking up, and not 10 minutes after that I´m crying again.
just like now. It´s hard. so hard.You cried yesterday saying you were sorry, that makes you even more lovable.
I can understand how you feel right now, cause it´s the same what I´ve experienced in the past , so I guess that my "fortune" wants me to experience the same now. Like always. It´s so predictable.
You know, we might learn from this and find together after this, or we´ll part painfully.
But I´ll wait.